Blind

Feeling confused…I don't know what to do
Where am I going?
Am I searching blindly in the darkness
For you…the one I doubt exists.
I keep spinning in circles
My head is dizzy
I'm not sure
Is this butterflies
Or sea-sickness
I toss and turn…
In my sheets at night
I wake in screams
The cold loneliness
Is deep inside
There's nothing you can do
I just can't heal from this
The pain is buried here
Will I ever let you in?
Would I even recognize you?
Or is it always an endless searching
I'm at a loss
In a maze that has no exit
I'm locked away
Moonlight and stars are my comfort
And the distant waves I hear
Is my only solace to the pain.
Closing my eyes…
I try and hide inside the place
I know you are there
But without your comforting embrace
I'm too cold and afraid
This world is dark and scary
If only I could find you in the dim light
Follow the feelings I have
Clearly without this foggy sight
I seem permanently blind
I fall under this weight I carry
How much farther must I go?
Please come rescue me.
I'm not sure I can take much more.